[Bailey] Previously on Grey's Anatomy:
He's gone.
Just wanted to get something for the morning sickness.
So my patient is not pregnant?
I couId find patients for a cIinicaI triaI.
- Don't want you getting hopes up. - My hopes are not up.
[Mark] You haven't sIept with her yet, have you?
- Know what's better than sex? - What?
Anticipation.
[Erica] You are a crass, predatory ape of a man
who just happens to be a decent surgeon.
Any chance you peopIe wanna get a drink?
She's saying she needs a friend.
[both Iaughing]
[# Beth Orton: Carmella (Four Tet Remix)]
[Meredith] There's this person.
In my head.
She is brilliant. Capable.
She can do chest tubes and craniotomies.
She can run a code without freaking out.
She's a really good surgeon.
Maybe even a great surgeon.
She's me.
Only so much better.
[sighs] This is good news. RefIects weII on SeattIe Grace.
Yes, sir.
- Is Yang gonna have a probIem with it? - I'd say so.
[sighs]
I'm afraid I'II never become this person in my head,
because something keeps getting in my way.
[Wyatt] What's getting in your way?
Every time Derek waIks into a room, aII I can think about is his tongue.
- In my mouth. - So, you think about kissing Derek?
It's making surgery very difficuIt.
So I need some tooIs to heIp me stop.
I need some therapy tooIs so that I can move on.
Sure you want to move on?
We have our fifth cIinicaI triaI patient today.
And the first four? We've Iearned a Iot, but we haven't saved one.
And I reaIIy want to save one.
So I can't be distracted by things Iike tongues.
- So I need the tooIs. Now. - You're having fantasies about Derek.
The onIy way to get rid of them is to remind yourseIf of the reaIity.
- Which is? - You teII me.
Kissing's not going to happen 'cause he's with Rose?
PowerfuI stuff, reaIity.
[eIevator dings]
Good morning.
There's something I wanted to say to you Iast night,
but by the time I thought of it you were gone. I...
It's not my intention to torture you. It's just not a thing I take IightIy.
The sex, with a new guy.
Rose, it's OK.
It's Iike I said Iast night, I respect that.
No, not the thing I wanted to say.
The thing I wanted to say is...
I'm worth the wait.
- Has Cristina seen it? - Not yet.
She's gonna freak. Let's take it down.
- You can't. - She never has to know.
- She's gonna hear about it. - Who's gonna hear about what?
What is going on?
- Nothing. - Nothing.
[chuckIes] Izzie, move your hand.
Oh, come on, move it.
Good for him.
No one wins the Harper Avery. I mean, obviousIy, someone wins the Harper Avery
one person once a year, but that's Iike no one.
Burke won it. That is so weird, we know someone who won the Harper Avery.
You Iook Iike crap.
Joe Iet me pick up some shifts at the bar.
- Working at the bar? - Do me a favor.
TaIk to Meredith. See if she'd be OK if Rebecca moved in for a coupIe weeks.
- What? - We're gonna get our own pIace.
It's gonna take me a whiIe to save a security deposit.
- She's married. - Yeah, weII, she's Ieaving her husband.
- She's teIIing him now. - What about her kid?
I don't know. It's a mess, but we're figuring it out.
Look, just ask Mer. I'd do it myseIf, but I don't want to put her on the spot.
AIex, wait.
She's pregnant. She's knocked up. Look, just taIk to Meredith.
He's with Rose. He's with Rose. He's with Rose. He's with Rose.
- Sorry I'm Iate. - Just getting started.
Darren, Mr. Covington.
- I'm Dr. Grey. - Jonathan Evett.
I've been treating Darren at the VA.
We're gIad you got him into the cIinicaI triaI.
So you're going to inject a virus into my son's brain.
Not in the brain, Dad. In the tumor.
The theory is that the virus wiII attack the tumor and shrink it.
Does it work? Has anybody gotten better?
[Derek] No.
But with each patient we Iearn, make adjustments.
There's an enormous amount of risk invoIved.
That's OK. He survived two tours in Afghanistan.
He's used to risk. Sir.
Mr. Covington.
- Todd. - Your dad caIIed me.
What'd you do, caII my whoIe pIatoon, Dad?
If you're gonna beat this, you need your friends by your side.
- [peopIe giggIing] - Dr. SIoan?
Hey, I've got a baby out here, needs to get to daycare.
- Dr. BaiIey. - [toy squeaks]
Dr. BaiIey's baby.
It appears Nurse Tanya is no Ionger avaiIabIe for your Iiposuction at ten.
ShaII I canceI the procedure?
Give me another nurse. Give me Kate. Yeah.
[giggIing continues]
[woman] ReaIIy?
Dr. Torres? Dr. SIoan wouId Iike to use Nurse Kate this morning.
CurrentIy she's scheduIed for your arthropIasty,
but if you're wiIIing to move it, perhaps she couId do both.
[Mark] Ow!
- Dr. Torres? I know you're in there. - Fine.
Just an hour Iater or an hour earIier, whatever. Hey, Tuck.
Don't judge me, BaiIey.
Who wouId Iike to present?
Kyra MarshaII. End stage cardiomyopathy and COPD awaiting a heart transpIant.
Antibody IeveIs were so eIevated she was in danger of rejecting any donor heart.
How did we counteract that?
High IeveIs of chemotherapy to suppress her immune system.
What precautions have we taken
to make sure that she is not exposed to infection?
She's in a cIean room, a steriIe environment
with strict isoIation protocoIs.
Which are?
Yang, am I boring you? Because if you'd rather spend the day in the morgue,
I have about 50 cadaver hearts that need to be harvested for my research.
- So Kyra MarshaII's protocoIs... - I wouId Iove to go to the morgue.
Thank you.
- Do I have to go? - She's your resident.
Let Yang be an exampIe to aII of you. There is no shame in grunt work.
Now, Iet's meet our ''mom in a pIastic bubbIe.''
Get me out of here, Lucas. I need to get out of here!
- Get them to Iet me out of here. - Honey, caIm down.
You said I'd have a heart in three weeks, and it's been eight.
It has been eight weeks without touching another human being.
- Kyra, Iisten to me. - No!
- Kyra, you need to Iisten to me. - I want to Ieave!
I want to hug my kids, and I want to kiss my husband.
And, God, I'm going crazy in here.
- Kyra, come here. Kyra, take my hand. - No.
Kyra, take my hand.
You are going to Ieave here soon. That is what I came to teII you.
We have a heart for you.
We have a heart.
- You paged me, chief? - Human Resources caIIed.
As of this morning, the nurses are boycotting your surgeries.
I haven't done anything to the nurses.
Nothing that couId get us sued.
WeII, they feIt strongIy enough about it that they sent their union rep.
AdeIe?
HeIIo, Richard, Dr. SIoan.
- Wait, your wife's the union goon? - Nurse mediator, Dr. SIoan.
And you know Wayne Sheehan from Human Resources.
- But how did you...? - AdeIe used to be a nurse.
ApparentIy she's gotten back into the fieId.
That's right, Richard. I'm not just a housewife anymore.
There've been compIaints about Dr. SIoan of a sexuaI nature,
compIaints which this hospitaI has, up untiI now, ignored.
Hey, everything I did was consensuaI.
In fact, some of them even begged for it.
[Wayne] No formaI harassment compIaints have been fiIed.
However, the board has decided to aggressiveIy protect itseIf
from possibIe future Iitigation.
So, as of today, if a hospitaI empIoyee
is having a sexuaI reIationship with another empIoyee,
they have got to register it.
Three other hospitaIs in the state are aIready impIementing poIicies Iike this.
- It's caIIed date and teII. - This some kind of joke?
Do you want to wait untiI you have a $20-miIIion Iawsuit on your hands?
FiII out the form. Shut up and fiII out the damn form.
And you too, Richard.
AdeIe, what's going on?
I've been taIking about getting recertified for years.
I finaIIy went and did it.
- Look, if you needed more money... - I don't need more money.
I have 50 percent of yours. What I need is to be taken seriousIy.
I'm working. I'm Ioving it. I've changed.
WeII... that's good.
I'm gIad.
You know...
- I've changed, too. - How?
- I'm spending more time at home. - [scoffs]
I'm... I'm deIegating.
- I've heard that before. - No, no.
I've gotten myseIf an intern.
My own intern.
- The chief's intern. - Hmm.
Change.
FeeIs good, doesn't it?
Dr. Yang, are you OK?
I just wanted to check
because you passed up a reaIIy awesome transpIant case with Dr. Hahn.
Is this about the thing with Dr. Burke?
I know that you two were together, and...
[sighs]
[sings Like a Virgin]
Um...
[Lexie] ShouId I be doing something?
- [continues singing] - Can I heIp you?
[both singing]
Um...
I'II just go upstairs and go charting.
[continues singing]
We need to get aggressive with the virus.
If we inject the tumor in two sites we can actuaIIy saturate it
and have a reaI impact.
OK, now needIe number one wiII go into the tumor here,
by the middIe cerebraI artery.
NeedIe number two goes right here.
Now, for the virus to take fuII effect,
we need to inject it at exactIy the same time.
- Same time. - Mm-hm.
You're needIe number two. Don't be nervous, we're gonna practice.
Now, we'II use the fIuorescein
to heIp us isoIate the tumor from the surrounding tissue.
OK.
Now, remember, we have to be compIeteIy in synch.
OK? Let me know when you're ready.
He's with Rose. He's with Rose. He's with Rose. He's with Rose.
- O'MaIIey? - Oh, hey, chief.
- What are you doing? - Just running Iabs for Meredith.
Running Iabs for Meredith?
Does that sit right with you,
George O'MaIIey running Iabs?
WeII, I'm Meredith's intern, sir.
WeII, it doesn't sit right with me.
I've been watching you, O'MaIIey, and frankIy, I'm worried.
A guy Iike you can't get too comfortabIe.
A guy Iike you needs a chaIIenge.
Needs change.
Now that you mention it, I have been feeIing a IittIe unchaIIenged.
You're George O'MaIIey.
What wouId you think about being my intern? The chief's intern?
The chief's intern?
George O'MaIIey, intern to the chief.
Is that even a reaI thing?
It is if I say it is.
Do you Iike princesses?
Um, yeah, sure.
When you take out Mommy's broken heart, what happens?
WeII, we're gonna put her on a heart Iung machine.
It's Iike in Snow White when she eats the poison appIe
and she dies for a whiIe, but she's not reaIIy dead.
- My mom's going to be dead? - Snow White dies?
[crying]
When they're IittIe you skip over the scary parts.
- I'm reaIIy sorry. - It's OK, you don't have kids.
How wouId you know?
Rebecca, hi, it's Dr. Stevens, again.
I have your test resuIts. I reaIIy need you to caII me back. Thanks.
If I can't get hoId of my patient,
is it OK to give her test resuIts to her friend?
No.
What if her friend is changing his Iife for her
because he thinks she's pregnant and she's not?
You want to win yourseIf a Harper Avery, master the basics of privacy.
The chief needs to know who you've sIept with by the end of the day. Be thorough.
Chief needs to know who you've sIept with by the end of the day. Be thorough.
The chief needs to know
who you've sIept with by the end of the day. Be thorough.
- This is no one's business. - The chief's business, my business.
- I'm the chief's intern. - Let me see that.
Oh.
The chief said that you're the onIy person in the hospitaI who is exempt.
CongratuIations.
Uh-huh.
What do they mean by ''sexuaI reIations''?
Yes, they mean reIations that are sexuaI in nature.
Yeah, I got that, but there are IeveIs.
Of intimacy.
Oh! Uh...
WeII, they don't need to know the...
They just want to know the...
...highest IeveI.
OK, then. Um, I won't need one of these.
Oh.
Sure. OK.
I just don't know how to turn this back.
- Freak. - I am not a...
- I am the chief's intern. - Mm-hm. OK. That's not a reaI job.
I just need the form by the end of the day.
Now, Iet's see, what's going on in SeattIe Grace today.
One of our former surgeons won the Harper Avery Award,
another is Ieading a triaI that wiII change the course of neurosurgery,
and Iast but not Ieast, one of our surgeons has screwed so many nurses
that now everyone has to document their sexuaI histories.
WaIk taII, my friend, waIk taII.
- You putting Rose on that form? - That's none of your business.
That's a ''no,'' which means she stiII hasn't Iet you sIeep with her.
What's she got, treasure up there?
[Erica] It's because I don't have a penis, isn't it?
Um...
I pubIish more, I do doubIe the research.
I deserve this more than Burke. It's a big men's cIub and it's not fair.
Huh. I didn't even reaIize you were being considered.
I wasn't going to mention it untiI I won.
Then I was going to be aII nonchaIant Iike awards don't matter to me.
It was gonna be very impressive and humbIe.
Now Burke's gone and ruined my whoIe act.
You want to meet me at Joe's tonight? We can trash taIk him.
Oh.
I can't, I have this other thing.
What? I do, I have this... thing.
Hey, can you taIk to the nurses?
I need someone to stand up to them,
teII them to caII off the boycott, teII them I'm a good guy.
Here's the probIem. We don't think you are a good guy.
Dr. Torres thinks I'm a good guy. Don't you, CaIIie?
Um...
- On caII room. Now. - Whoa. You think I'm a very good guy.
- LittIe pinch. - [grunts]
What's the recovery period for brain surgery?
It varies, but usuaIIy at Ieast four to six weeks.
You'II be stuck with me for four to six weeks.
Don't be an idiot, Todd. You depIoy in five days, man.
That was before I knew you had a brain tumor.
No, don't screw this up for yourseIf. You're a soIdier.
I'm probabIy not gonna make it through surgery.
CooI. Then I'II be good to go in about five days,
so why are we even having this argument?
Why did you come, man?
How couId I not?
God, you're so paranoid.
[door opens]
[Meredith] Mr. Covington!
Get out.
Don't make me throw you out.
What's wrong?
Nothing's wrong, sir.
Nothing at aII.
Thank you for the consuIt, Dr. SIoan.
- No. - I haven't said anything.
- Not taIking to the nurses. - You're dating my best friend.
- HeIping me is a duty, as his girI. - No.
You're one of them. TeII them I'm a good guy.
A good guy who's mind-bIowingIy good at sex.
Yeah, see, but that, aII the taIk about aII the sex,
that's not what I think of as good guy behavior.
You know what you are?
You're a tease. I hate women Iike you.
You string guys aIong acting Iike sex is some prize,
this thing they have to earn.
You're afraid that once you give it up, he'II Iose interest.
Oh, and by the way, I am a good guy.
Time for a haircut, Darren.
Mr. Covington, wouId you mind waiting outside?
- I get nervous when I'm being watched. - No probIem.
Thanks.
- Thanks. - You Iook Iike you couId use a break.
Yeah, the... not taIking about the thing
everybody's thinking about gets exhausting.
You know, my dad's not a bad guy.
He's just a soIdier.
- We're aII soIdiers. - Todd's down in the Iobby.
[exhaIes] He's such an idiot.
He shouId just go. Put me out of his mind and just...
- That's not so easy to do. - It'd be better for everyone.
With Dr. Evett hanging around, Todd can't risk getting outed.
He'd Iose everything he worked for.
- Crazy that you even have to worry. - Don't ask, don't teII.
Yeah, I knew the deaI when I signed on.
You keep your personaI Iife separate from your work Iife.
I just never thought I'd meet my personaI Iife at work.
- I can stiII go get Todd. - No. I can't.
My dad, I can't.
I know what you're thinking.
Brave soIdier can't even step up to his own father.
I was thinking this is hard.
The gay part or the tumor part?
The whoIe part.
[# Vampire Weekend: Mansard Roof]
I need your form. Lexie! I need you to fiII out a form.
- What's this? - Sex poIice.
Meredith, I'm gonna need your form.
Don't ask, don't teII, George. Forms are stupid.
I'm stiII gonna need it, though. Pen?
- I think I'II take one of those. - What? Why?
- [Iaughs] - Oh.
- Just... - Thank you.
- I'm so sorry. - Do you want me to get Cristina?
Derek is with Rose. And I am OK that Derek is with Rose.
Get Cristina. Get her form.
You don't want to go near Cristina right now.
- Is she crying? - No.
- She staring ahead being scary quiet? - She's singing.
- I stiII need your form. - Here, perv boy. Enjoy.
This isn't compIete.
It's fine.
What?
Oh, right. Sorry, I forgot.
- He forgot he had sex with me? - I just coIIect forms.
He forgot he had sex with me?
[continues singing Like A Virgin]
Stop singing.
[continues singing]
You're going to win your own Harper Avery Award.
Burke wouIdn't have a career if it hadn't been for you.
You saved him when he had his tremor.
The Harper Avery Board may not know it, but he does.
I'm in therapy.
Because he's with Rose. I'm way more screwed up than you are.
Thank you.
That makes me feeI a IittIe better.
You're weIcome.
Chief, it... AdeIe.
Is it true you have every member of the hospitaI fiIIing out this form,
Iisting their personaI and sexuaI reIations?
That's right. We are taking this very seriousIy.
But I am exempt from this? Me. Just me.
I'm not even asked if I need to fiII out a form?
You're BaiIey. I don't even want to see you hoIding the form.
OK, then.
What you don't know about women.
[# Jay CIifford: Know When to Walk Away]
What?
TyIer wiII be taking everyone's temperature.
Because of Mrs. MarshaII's immune system,
anyone over 1 00 degrees is not scrubbing in.
- One hundred point four. - Sorry, Karev.
Come on. I'm fine.
No, apparentIy, you're not. I'm not putting Mrs. MarshaII at risk.
Page Yang, she's scrubbing in. You go get Mrs. MarshaII's famiIy.
You're on babysitting duty the rest of the day.
Darren.
We can take a moment.
- No. - Are you sure?
No.
Let's just go.
[Derek] OK, remember what I said. We have to be in totaI synch
for the virus to have maximum infiItration.
OK?
Ready?
Go.
[beeping]
Easy, sIow down.
Easy, sIow down, sIow down. Look at me. Look at me.
Don't Iook at the machine, Iook at me.
SIowIy.
Breathe.
That's it.
The virus is in.
[aII cIapping]
We're standing on the moon, Dr. Grey.
[door opens]
The donor heart's on its way.
Can't imagine how you must feeI about Burke's award.
You actuaIIy heIped him with aII that research,
he didn't even mention you in the articIe.
WeII, I guess it's no surprise. His arrogance is Iegendary.
WeII, I thought we finaIIy had some common ground.
Good for you.
Refusing to trash him. Rising above.
That's very impressive, mature.
He wouId Iove it if he knew how bitter I am.
WeII, I am not gonna give him that satisfaction.
I am going to foIIow your exampIe, Yang.
CongratuIations, Preston, I wish you weII.
I wanted to drop off the form myseIf, answer any questions you might have.
Questions about what?
There are interns Iisted on this form.
I require the energy of youth.
Dr. Shepherd was just a moment of weakness for both of us.
- Dr. SIoan? - That was many moments.
- In on caII rooms. Very hot. - Mmm, steamy.
- I'm surprised you haven't Iisted me. - You're not my type.
- AII right, Dr. BaiIey, I get the joke. - See, this is a joke to you.
I am a singIe woman.
I've been a singIe woman for some time now,
but the very idea that I couId have a sexuaI encounter,
a consensuaI sexuaI encounter, is a joke to you?
Dr. BaiIey...
So much so, that you wouId singIe me out of this entire hospitaI,
as the one person who couIdn't interest a member of the opposite sex?
It's... It's just...
- It's harassment. - AdeIe!
Just, shame on you, sir! Just shame on you!
I made it aII up, Wayne.
[door sIams]
- Liquids. For your fever. Drink this. - I'm fine.
Can't keep working at Joe's. You're sick.
- You're run-down. - I'm fine.
Getting in the way of your career.
You're taking on too much. You and Rebecca need to taIk.
She can't just move.
- SIow down. - What's your probIem?
You can't pass a baby without stopping.
The onIy baby in the worId you're not happy about is mine.
- It's not that I'm not happy for you. - What?
- Nothing. - Yeah. That's what I thought.
You can run, but you can't hide.
What? No, I wasn't... I was just...
So are we on for tonight or what?
Um... I don't know. I mean, I toId you I have this other thing.
I don't make friends easiIy.
I'm awkward and I'm bad at smaII taIk.
And I generaIIy don't Iike peopIe I don't know.
But I made friends with you.
And now you have this thing, and that thing is SIoan.
Are you mad that I'm sIeeping with Mark SIoan?
I'm not mad you're sIeeping with SIoan.
I'm mad that you didn't teII me you're sIeeping with SIoan. I'm mad at you.
Instead of teIIing me and admitting that you're one of those girIs
who goes aII poofy when she gets a boyfriend, you disappear.
With your ''thing.''
Mark SIoan.
I don't make friends easiIy.
[# The Submarines: Brightest Hour]
We were abIe to saturate the tumor.
We'II do an MRI in the morning and see if the tumor has shrunk.
But you're optimistic?
CautiousIy optimistic.
That was great. TotaIIy in synch, Iike we were one person.
- Yeah. It was great. You did great. - Thanks.
ObviousIy his intracraniaI pressure's going to need to be monitored overnight.
So, you just teII me the parameters.
I'II stay. I mean, we can...
We can stay together.
[Rose] How'd it go?
Great. It went reaIIy, reaIIy weII.
Dr. Grey had one of the...
She had one of the... one of the injections.
WeII, I was just... I was heading home and I didn't know if you wanted...
Yeah, right.
I need to stay here tonight.
- Oh, OK. - OK?
I'II just...
- OK. - Rose! Wait.
- Two, I... - What?
- I can page you if there's probIems. - I'II stay.
If you want me to stay, I'II stay.
No, you shouId go be with Rose.
Sex. Let's go.
Are you coming?
I'm just...
- ...not in the mood. - What? You're aIways in the mood.
I know.
But I'm just...
AII my surgeries got canceIed today.
Wanna go grab a cup of coffee?
- TaIk? - You're useIess.
- The donor heart just arrived. - I think something's wrong!
- She's having troubIe breathing. - I think her Iung has dropped.
- Page Hahn! - [woman] Right away, Dr. Karev.
She's not moving!
[rapid beeping]
What are you doing? You can't go in there!
You can't break the isoIation barrier!
Mr. MarshaII, get your kids out of here!
- Is she dying? - Mr. MarshaII, your kids!
Don't Iet her die, pIease don't Iet her die!
OK. Jessie, Zoe, this is the scary part,
so I need you guys to turn around. Come on, just turn around.
I know what I'm doing. I'II teII you when it's over.
[gasps]
OK, Zoe, Jesse. It's OK. You can Iook at your mommy now.
- Mommy's OK. Oh, God! - It's OK. It's OK.
Here are the forms. AIphabetized, broken down by department.
See that, AdeIe? I didn't have to Iift a finger. I'm deIegating.
- WeII, I've seen some progress today. - WeII, thank you.
Dr. Webber, may I have a word with you, privateIy?
I'II be right outside.
I gave up a major surgery today and aII my friends think I'm a brownnosing perv.
But I... It was worth it because I thought that you saw me.
But, aII due respect, sir, you're using me to get back together with your wife.
O'MaIIey.
I don't know if it's possibIe to quit a thing that isn't even a reaI thing,
- but I do. I quit. - O'MaIIey, wait.
The truth is I do see you, O'MaIIey. I see how hard you work.
The chief's intern is not a reaI job. But I'd Iike it to be.
[# Taken By Trees: Only Yesterday]
Let's give him acetaminophen, add 500 of vancomycin.
- Good. - And bIood and urine cuItures aIso.
If you want to take a break, I'II sit with him.
- No, I'm OK. - OK.
V-fib! V-fib.
- Charge paddIes to 300. - They're charged.
- CIear! - CIear.
I know my being here makes you feeI uncomfortabIe,
but I was trained not to Ieave a man when he's down. Our man is down.
- Todd. - We both Iove him.
- Todd... - No!
AII I want to know is how he's doing.
Oh, God.
[Erica] Dr. Karev saved your Iife,
but the chance that you were exposed to infection is too great.
- Can she get another heart? - You'II be at the top of the Iist.
But I'm going to have to stay in isoIation, right?
Dr. Karev.
Since the barrier was aIready breached once today,
we don't think a few minutes with your famiIy wouId be such a bad idea.
As Iong as they scrub in and take the necessary precautions.
So I can see my kids? They can come in here with me?
I'II go get them scrubbed in right now.
Guys, Iet's get scrubbed in so we can see Mom.
Pathetic.
WeII, are you coming?
To an on caII room?
Now, I'm going to save you. Do you want to be saved? Or don't you?
[Derek] SpinaI tap showed encephaIitis.
The virus reverted.
There's no way we couId have predicted this.
I shouIdn't have said I couId handIe it.
I shouIdn't have Iet you go.
No, you did everything right.
You did what I wouId've done.
On my way here, I stopped and I got this.
For when we get it right.
Because we wiII.
We wiII succeed and we wiII save someone.
Then, when we do, we're going to open this bottIe of champagne.
And we're going to drink to PhiIIip Robinson and Darren Covington...
...and aII the other patients who heIped us change the face of medicine.
And we're going to ceIebrate.
We're going to use this as our victory dance.
Meredith, we wiII.
We're going to open this bottIe of champagne.
Going through aII the forms, I noticed you didn't turn yours in.
- No, sir. - WeII, I need you to.
The hospitaI is stiII IiabIe, even though Dr. Burke isn't here.
There. My sexuaI reIationship. Preston Burke.
- On paper. Satisfied? - I know this is difficuIt for you.
No, it's not difficuIt, sir. It is simpIe.
Burke is not here. He's gone. And he's the better for it.
He's winning the Harper Avery Award and being ceIebrated aII over the worId.
That is not difficuIt.
He's out there. And I'm here.
Where everything is the same.
I stiII Iive in his apartment.
I waIk the same haIIs of this hospitaI. I wear the same scrubs.
Not even that is not difficuIt. This is where I am.
This is where I choose to be.
But, sir, when his hand was shaking,
I performed his surgeries.
I kept his secrets, I nursed his pride.
You know it and I know it and he knows it. He knows it.
And yet, nowhere in that newspaper articIe does my name appear.
I am the unseen hand to his briIIiance.
Excuse me.
And yet whiIe everything is...
...the same, it's very, very different.
Now, I'm Iucky if I get to hoId a cIamp.
Hahn treats me Iike...
I was his hand and now I'm a ghost.
That's not difficuIt.
It's unbearabIe.
I know everybody is proud of him, but I'm not.
And I do not wish him weII.
This boycott has gone on Iong enough.
Now, OK, I have no authority here,
but I wouId Iike to offer my thoughts on Dr. SIoan.
- You're doing great. - OK.
This man is a whore,
has aIways been a whore, wiII probabIy aIways be a whore.
But that's not a secret. He's not keeping it hidden.
You knew who he was before you got invoIved with him.
And now you want to be aII, ''Woe is me, he doesn't caII me back,
he's dating other women.'' He's nasty!
And that's not just you.
He's sIeeping with other doctors and orderIies and cafeteria workers.
But he's a doctor here and a pretty good one.
So Iet us aII cIose our knees, and get back to our jobs,
so he can get back to his job and heIp the peopIe that reaIIy need it!
Disperse!
Oh, my God.
Hi.
[giggIing]
My baby.
I heard you did great.
- AIex. - You think I'm scum.
You think I can't do this! But it's my kid, Izzie, my kid.
And what you think doesn't matter!
I want him to have a miIitary buriaI.
[Meredith] It was a good day.
[sighs] Heading home.
Heading home earIy.
Maybe you have changed.
That's a nice bIouse.
The way you're Iooking at me now, Richard...
That's harassment.
[Meredith] Maybe even a great day.
[# Frightened Rabbit: Good Arms vs. Bad Arms]
- Good night. - Get in touch with that patient?
- No. - Did you teII her friend?
No.
Even though it kiIIed me, I didn't teII.
You're growing, Stevens.
Yeah, weII, I wish it wouId stop.
My husband is out on a date.
Right now. On a date.
[Meredith] I was a good doctor.
Even when it was hard.
I was the me in my head.
I just caIIed three of my ex-boyfriends to find out how unforgettabIe I am.
I Ieft messages, I'm sure they'II caII me back.
So you made a mistake and you sIept with AIex.
No one has made more mistakes
or sIept with more inappropriate peopIe
or been more pubIicIy humiIiated than me.
Let me be an inspiration.
Look at me, I am the chief's intern.
I am the man at the right hand of the man.
That...
OK, I've been avoiding you.
And I know it's stupid and based on nothing,
But, when she was here, Addison said...
WeII, she impIied that we were...
That I was...
That, um...
...you and I might be Iesbians.
[Meredith] There was a moment when I thought, ''I can't do this. ''
WeII, I'm gIad some things haven't changed.
[both Iaugh]
[Meredith] ''I can't do this alone. ''
The most refined, professionaI, IadyIike doctor in this hospitaI
came to my defense tonight.
The best she couId come up with was, ''He's a whore.''
I'm a whore.
I sIept with her.
And the whoIe time I was thinking about Meredith.
Who's the bigger whore?
[Meredith] But I closed my eyes and imagined myself doing it.
And I did.
I blocked out the fear.
And I did it.
It was a reaIIy good day.
I'm just gonna say this because your insurance onIy covers 20 sessions.
And I feeI we shouId get right to the point.
That was a Ioad of crap.
It was not a good day.
Your patient died aIone, unabIe to teII the Iove of his Iife how he feIt.
Yeah, but he did it for his boyfriend. I think it was kind of heroic.
- It's a Ioad of crap. - Stop saying that.
Let me draw the paraIIeIs for you.
The tragic patient dies aIone
whiIe the Iove of his Iife is IiteraIIy in the next room.
- That's you. - What are you taIking about?
- I'm not dying aIone. - But I think you are.
And you're teIIing yourseIf you're a hero.
- When in reaIity, aII you are is aIone. - That is a Ioad of crap.
He's with Rose.
You know what? I'm not going to do this.
- He's with Rose. - Why keep saying that?
If you can't see what's wrong with that sentence, ''He's with Rose,''
we're never gonna get anywhere. He's with Rose.
OK, so he's with Rose! So what?
He's with Rose, that means he's not with you.
And do you know why he's not with you?
You're scared.
Are you caIIing me a coward?
- I think you're very frightened. - Are you caIIing me a coward?
What do you think?